[Extracted from the monthly ECO NEWS - September 2019]
This is my favourite time of year, and my second watershed moment. It’s the smell of crisp air, coloured leaves and new beginnings. Children are preparing for school…. And AAs are gearing up for another Election Assembly. The excitement and anticipation ahead are particularly strong when one panel ends for a new one to begin.
The day I recognized that I was powerless over alcohol was my first watershed moment. Somehow I knew that my life was never going to be the same. This sobriety idea was new and terrifying and necessary. Attending 3 meetings a week was tremendous….the alcohol left my system, as well as the craving for it and THAT was a miracle. But that was just the beginning.
For years my sobriety was a wasteland of going through the motions. I thought “Is this all there is?” There was no feeling of unity or connection in me, even though I knew my home group fairly well….then I made a change. I raised my hand. ‘One of the best decisions ever.
After attending Assemblies in Red Deer, as General Service Rep and then as District Committee Member, I took the plunge and became willing to serve as a Committee Chair. They appointed me as Grapevine Chair. It was so much fun! Feeling useful was a bonus.
Being a committee chair gave me many opportunities to just say “hi” to other committee chairs, to get to know them and work together. I got to see how they “lived life on life’s terms.” It slowly dawned on me that this was a group I wanted to belong to. It was changing me from the inside out.
Two years later, another election approached, and two thoughts took over in my head. One said: “You could do Secretary” while the other said: “Are you kidding? No way, you’ll screw it up!” So I hesitated. When the Chair asked for people to let their name stand for Secretary I waited. And waited. No one raised their hand!! I waited some more; then it struck me: “What if no one raises their hand! I guess I’m better than nothing!”
That led to raising my hand for the next 4 elections, to where we are today, at the end of another term of service. It has been such a privilege to serve Area 78 as Secretary, Treasurer, Chair, Alternate Delegate, and Delegate. I feel the love, unity and connection to every member of AA. I will always cherish the many friends, great learnings, opportunities for growth and the memories made while traveling down the service structure of Alcoholics Anonymous.
It took me a long time to actually trust that AA was right for me - that God and the fellowship could make me a better person. Getting involved in service has made all the difference.
Thank you all for my sobriety
Area 78 Delegate, Alberta, NWT, W. Nunavut